Is it normal and acceptable that an average, seemingly content and happy individual to the outside world, could at one point in their life feel incomplete and then feel totally guilty of it?
It doesn’t make sense. I have everything a girl at my age would want. An averagely good job, an amazing boyfriend, a degree I love studying for and the occasional socializing when desired and when of course permitted by the adult watchful eye. But I have suddenly reached the point where one feels a certain emptiness, like somethings missing but you just don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s my job that has now become monotonous after 3 years of doing the similar jazz in and out, or maybe it’s the overall lifestyle that I have become accustomed to of work, home, class etc etc. I have thought of changing my job which of course was not very successful because of the high demand of jobs in our motherland and well maybe also due to my laziness to look a bit further. Then I turned to the option of going abroad which seems very challenging since I have a partner with which I need to make such a drastic decision with and honestly when its not only yourself you need to think about it makes decision more complicated. It has also dawned to me that maybe I have just reached that age of marriage. Oh but the drama that comes along when you mention that…”we need to save more” , “wait till your older” ,”it’s too much of expense”, “very soon”, “I want it badly too but very soon”,the very soon that never came soon.
And so now I have reached the climax of giving up. Totally and completely fed up and confused as to how I could get rid of this feeling, the urge to break lose and run free. Even if the need is so strong some hidden part inside of me is frightened to let go of everything I have become so comfortable with, not wanting to risk losing the people and things I love the most. What should I do? Break lose and run free or sit calm and patiently waiting for time to play its part? I hope I’m not alone in this dilemma 
